October

The rising tide surges inky, black and swirling drowning everything in its path with a darkness greater than the beach its onslaught lays waste ending the revelry of summer The choking salt drives all away in a violent steady flood cold, dark, unpleasant and rough up from the shoreline back to their homes The beach is battered like it might disappear forever And then the water at its deepest and most dangerous stops turns back out to sea and leaves the beach alone.

tik - tok an brok 'n shudder Twisting 'round a shatter'd rudder Hale and party to the glass Sits me down upon my ass Mind is swirl'd like chocolate cake Words unfinished have gone to bake A healthy man would sure do more with my mind's defeating roar A broek soul'd mark upon my chest I live a life assur'dly blest For from a word divinely spoken On my brain a little brok'n I shake it out and stand again And try to reach for word and pen But fog and cloud are stopping me From my thoughts and sanity Dazed brown eyes are haz-ed here Grasping words that won't come near The poem's heart torn hard asunder With ragged lines all weak Like thunder

I never learned to drown my demons      They already knew how to swim So I tried to smoke them to silence      Because I forgot they came from hell It's hard Not knowing Who I'll be tomorrow Told my depression is not the "real me" or that they miss their "happy friend" as if I can break some part of me off At least if I crank up the radio too loud they'll just get upset at the noise. But not at me. For being broken in my completeness For having parts that don't work right For being more human  Than my masks Some demon is bitter. Another cruel with his words. Several of them are hopeless But they speak a truth That half of the world isn't right And wrong is hard to accept And pain really exists Regardless of my smile.

Swingit like a slingstone when you're walking all alone Keys on a lanyard til you're in your front yard City's gotta monster waiting by the dumpster In shadows there he's lurking stab you through your jerkin Wanna just get home tonight before I see another fight Darkness is the city people being shitty Wanna see the bears and woods please keep me from these thugs and hoods Men all around me stupid screaming angry No room to just be free they always take offense at me *SCrEAM* Evil's in the heartland no one there to hold my hand Violent groups have gather-d madder than a hatter Hating those they do not know the crowds are standing toe to toe It's gonna be a shitty night all of us will lose the fight Someone yells a horrid sound 'burn the city to the ground!' Men all around me stupid screaming angry God I'm done don't wanna stay please just let me walk away But there ain't no way to be cause they all are killing thee.

Punkrocker Poetry The only way to stay safe is not to be seen Everybody's selfish and most are mean Stayin in the shadows or stayin lit Because the whole human race is just pieces of shit Kill you for politics or money or power This whole fuckin thing is in it's final hour The only way to stay safe is not to be seen Everybody's selfish and most are mean Human beings are so godamn great! When each one would sell you out for pieces of eight. Don't know what to tell you this ride's going down. Best way to stay alive is get outta town. The only way to stay safe is not to be seen Everybody's selfish and most are mean Stayin in the shadows or stayin lit Because the whole human race is just pieces of shit Violence sucks!

She loves me Can I get a port visit She loves me Can I get a port visit Night falls Cannot get enough of her Day comes Cannot get enough of her She loves me Can I get a port visit She loves me Can I get a port visit Stop Sir I see the one I love Oh god There goes my little one She loves me Can I get a port visit She loves me Can I get a port visit Run-ning Tryin a get a glimpse of her Chase-ing Oh shit that wasn't her She loves me Can I get a port visit She loves me Can I get a port visit